Yep, Radiuszero here. Back from the dead. @_@ I just recently posted a two-piece Parasite Eve poster I've been working on for a month or so. Sooooo glad I finally finished it. Additionally, I attended a small artshow opening of my work at the Pinup Parlor hair salon. They gave me a free haircut, lol, and even helped advertise my art at San Antonio's Current magazine so that was definitely exciting. There was a wonderful attendance with great food and DJ. Meanwhile, I'm completing a few graphic design work for One-Eyed Doll's "Dirty" record, so I've had a full plate. I'll also be submitting a piece for the Deathranch 5000 book project. I was invited to submit an artwork based on Texas folklore. I'm extremely excited for that!

Right now it's time for me to focus on the upcoming conventions. Eeek. I'm so nervous. Whereas last year I had a lot of new work to sell, this year was all about quality over quantity. I'm hope this strategy will pay off in the end, though.

Sorry for my lack of presence here in DA btw. There've just been a lot of things happening in my life; a lot of questions. Right now I'm applying for a higher position at the store, with the possibility of moving toward being a store manager. I like the job and the people. However, I feel pretty depressed that this move may permanently seal the door of getting an art-related job. I love art. I love fantasy/sci-fi. I really would love to be involved videogames, whether in concept art or creating possible stories for them. Still, I also need a stable job to keep the student loans away and pay the bills. I hate that my whole life now revolves around debt. Sometimes I wish I never attended college, especially since I'm currently in a job that has nothing to do with my major.

So yeah, it's been depressing. My art has suffered in the sense that I'm not producing as much as I've done in the past. It took me awhile to complete my latest "Liberation" piece, in fact. I've never spent more than a month or two on a piece. Ever. Ironically enough, that work features the theme of duality and power struggle. I honestly feel the fight between Aya and Eve reflects my own inner turmoils. There are two forces of nature fighting for domination. I halfway expected that by completing that artwork I'd feel a type of closure for my spirit. But after finishing it I still feel lost in the battle scene. Liberation embodies everything going on in my life. However. Liberation also reminds me that Aya eventually overcame her foe. Even though she isn't the same character again throughout the game series, especially the Third Birthday, she still fights on. It's funny how stories, even from videogames, can offer some life lessons.

Even as I continue to struggle with my own path, I do feel like a different person today than I was previous years. I'm more honest with myself. I'm just going to take things one at a time and find the power to liberate myself.